Today, we lost an important member of our family: our budgie Boe.
Boe was not the first bird I had but he was the first domesticated bird I owned. I nursed abandoned birds to health and taught them to fly as a child. I always felt a connection with birds- I even had a birdwatching book and would spend hours in my backyard tracking the feathery visitors. When I went to a bird sanctuary for my birthday two years ago, my love of birds was re-ignited and a week later Boe (named as such by the Face of Boe in Doctor Who) was added to our family of animals.
After a year, we realized consistent bonding was difficult and we got Pan a cage-mate and a brother, Pan. Pan and Boe bonded instantly. They groomed each other. They loved one another.
Today, unfortunately, while cleaning their cage outside, Boe saw his opportunity and flew the coop. Who could blame him? The feeling of freedom… But now I imagine he is scared and lonely, and Pan hasn’t been the same since.
Being a spiritual person doesn’t make loss any easier. My human ego causes serious attachment to the physical. I can only let go so much but when it comes to my darling animal children, it’s too difficult to not be attached. His flight hurt me far more than I imagined it would.
I’m in too distraught of a mindset to ask my guides and archangels whether Boe is okay, and I don’t want to selfishly ask for his return and then be angry with the fates if they don’t listen to my requests. I’m kind of at a loss. There are moments where I distract myself but then I’m brought back to thoughts of him. I only hope he is okay. And happy. But we all miss him; even the cat is confused at his lack of presence and lack of song…
In other news, I live close to Toronto and there is currently a fair happening called the CNE. It’s a big exhibition with rides and greasy food and the like, but the part I love the most about it that brings me back every year are the numerous booths of different countries with so many beautiful, sacred wares and the fantastic crystal booths. I got some beautiful blessed items. I cannot wait to show you all. Tomorrow, perhaps.
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**STARTING AUGUST 22ND, I WILL BE OUT OF THE COUNTRY WITH LIMITED ACCESS TO E.MAIL. AS SUCH, TAROT READINGS CAN ONLY BE PERFORMED AUGUST 29th AND ONWARDS. NO RUSH READINGS WILL BE ABLE TO OCCUR. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE AND UNDERSTANDING!**
Goodnight, you beautiful stars in my universe…
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i’m sorry for your loss… 😦 Furry babies are so hard to let go…